life has all hues and cries...

its exam time again, when the creativity of a person is at its peak. i think if a person is kept under exam pressure then he is the most creative person in the world. an engineer, per se, thinks of all the other things in the world except exam questions in such situation. i started a strange journey of mba which is a dream of every s/w engg. now im going to tell you my boring story. on the 3rd day of my mba i met a guy who looked very simple, hailed from a smal town of haryana.we were introduced to each other by a common friend. i came to know that guy was from same the same background as i was. over the time he cherished the same dreams which i did. we both were frustrated with the placecom's workload. everytime we met, we used to evaluate what good have we done by joining a b-school. since we didnt have a good ratio of fairer sex so a boy- boy friendship was obvious(dont think otherwise). by the time our 1st trim was getting over. we both were getting kicked by most of the companies in our summer placement. believe me if you share the same background and face the same situation together you both are gonna be best friends. nothing but these common features will bring you together. once after getting kicked in 3 companies we both were sitting in asiad (a restaurant near our college). after having enough of our share he started, a very emotional connotation. gosh this idiot shared the same history as i had. a middle class background. peer pressure led to NIT. couple of years in IT. and then after mba to satisfy our ego. we both were not ass-lickers and hated sycophancy like anything. we had our own principles. we both decided to club together to chase our dreams. we ignored our placecom works and started participating in all the events to add values in our CVs. we had a nice frequency match, what you call resonance in technical term. we understood each other's need and demand. i am a bit reluctant but he was aggressive. our teaming up worked. it fetched us 3-4 all india comp certificates in a month. we made our project team and it worked too. i a marketing guy was good at finance papers and he, having inclination towards finance, was too good for marketing. but as it is said in Panchatantra, by Vishnu Sharma, you should not let others enter into your friendship. there was some misscommunication in our project group. i was accused of not doing any work by a couple of our project mates. it is truly said that who you admire and love most you show your anger max at him. same happened with me. ego is too high for me. that's my inherent nature which no one can understand. i complained to him. he taking care of me published it in the group as if asking who is the person behind this mischief. my ego got hurt. i could not resist to show my anger at such incidence. we both knew that our friendship stood first before all but you know like story in Mcbeth takes new turns because of misscommunication. you need to correct it as soon as possible. sooner is better and i got it late. the gap became so wide that it became very difficult to bridge it. i am a kind of person who is emotionally very weak, you will be if you have never stayed with your parents. i am not vocal that's my another weakness. life went on. its been ten days. we were bakar partners,kicking asses of everyone but without him there is no post in our bakar group (yes we do have a bakar group to get some tp in the most hectic life of mba). i tried to approach him but all in vain. he approached me after the presentation which he almost screwed...:P but at that moment i got so emotionally overwhelmed that i couldnt even utter a single word. in the hectic life of mba, which makes you work for 18-20 hrs a day that too every day you hardly find a friend with who you can share your thoughts and you are not sure whether he will understand or not unless he shares the same values, culture, tradition, academic and social background, successes and failures in the same proportion. i found one but everything went wrong. i dont have time-machine to go back and correct it. i am on the verge of loosing a gem of my life and i have almost lost all hopes to get those precious moments restored. i wish i could be more vocal, explicit and a bit more brash to communicate my feelings across other's minds. i, today, am down with 102 degree fever staring at roof cherishing all those moments and cursing my inabilities waiting for a happy wave. there is only one relationship which a human being makes in his life of his choice that is friend. you come across hundreds of such people but you get only few who come forward and share the same view and if you gotta lose such beings you have a biggest negative mark on the asset side of balance sheet of your life. i have already done such an act and there is no use crying over the split milk.